Day 62 – Tuesday Trips
I woke up in my Corporate Housing space this morning and took a basket of some of Melissa’s favorite things to her as she came in from her long shift. She appreciated it and said that I was a romantic. I could tell that she was smoked tired and I promised to let her rest for the whole day.
Speaking of being romantic I wonder if I really am and also if I can be throughout Melissa and my whole relationship. I hear that after a short time of marriage most people stop being romantic. For some reason they just stop showing surprising love to their partners. Favorite things are forgotten. Dates are rare. Special days become barely remembered trials to endure. It happens to most people – even to those couples who are considered to be good couples. I would vow to make sure it never happens to us, but I figure that this would be a foolish vow – how can I know that I will always promote romance. Anyway, I will try my best.
My meditation today was about humbling self under God’s mighty hand so that He can lift us up in due time. This made me think a lot about how easy it is for me to act pridefully. Pride comes before a fall and all that mess. I dread the falls and I want to be the humble one who gets lifted up by God, but there are so many opportunities to puff up and pat myself on the back. I believe my cultural upbringing has turned me into an entitled and prideful man. But that is no excuse. I need to stay on my knees in every situation and not try to make myself look better than someone else. I also don’t need to do things so that I can prove I am something special. I find that I have an internal resume I try to add to every day. I should be focused on God and on helping others instead of helping myself. God have mercy on me for chasing the top of the hill…
I guess trying and failing to understand the church architects was a good way to keep myself humble. I think I should put myself in more situations where I will fail. I think people can learn a lot from failing, but most of us tend to avoid those places that can humble us. Taking on clients like Texas colleges is a good thing too, because I have to work to navigate a huge system and sometimes it doesn’t move as well as I want it to. And even working for small clients like the guys at the Lubbock landscaping group has its challenges. I will try new things from now on and not beat myself up for not accomplishing what I set out to do. Not that I am going to do a bad job on purpose, but I’m just not going to pummel myself for falling down – falling down puts us on our knees and that’s where God wants us to be.
What do you think about this stuff? What are your thoughts on staying romantic and on being humble? Feel free to comment.